Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Knowing Me, Knowing You

Guess what time it is? Blogtember time! Remember how I did that blog every day in May "challenge" a few months ago? Well, the lovely Jenni over at Story of My Life blog is hosting another blogging challenge that I'm equally excited to participate again. The prompts are really great this time around, too! If you want to participate, you can check out the challenge at her blog here.

Today's challenge is to "describe where or what you come from. The people, the places, and/or the factors that make up who you are."

Honestly, when I sit down to think about this prompt, there are so many memories and people that flood my mind; so many of which have contributed to who I have become to day. I'm so happy to say that most of that has been positive and not negative. 

I was born into an incredibly loving family. My mom has a positivity that gives her strength in the face of obstacles and pain; my dad has such love and wisdom that were and are so valuable to me. And then once my younger brother came along, it was nice to have someone else there to figure things out with, even though we had some pretty nasty fights along the way. And honestly, no one makes me laugh like my brother does. He is so unbelievably funny! Looking back, my family was always around, from my grandparents to my aunts, uncles, cousins, and everyone in between. I'm thankful for the amounts of love and trust that we are able to give to one another.

Internally, I was a very fearful child. Everything scared me; the dark, being alone, having to read out loud in class, etc. As I grew older, that fear turned into insecurity. I became less afraid of things, and more afraid of people, particularly my peers. I struggled to find where I belonged in terms of everyone around me. I thought that if I did everything the same way as my peers did, that I would be golden. It worked sometimes, but other times I would let the facade drop just a little. I would wear socks with penguins on it (which I loved, by the way) or show a little too much enthusiasm for a particular book or subject in school, and suddenly I was the subject of ridicule.

Despite all of that, my home life kept me grounded and gave me the love I needed. I was also very blessed to have two of the best friends someone can have in their youth. I met Kelsey when we were in elementary school together, but we really became bonded in our middle school days. In eight grade, Alyssa moved into our small town, and before long, the three of us became inseparable. It was such a relief to find people so similar, yet so different, with whom I could confide, live life with, and love.

And so, the three of us survived high school by each others side. Honestly, high school was so much easier for me than middle school ever was. I started to become more confident in what and who I was. I started to do what I wanted because I wanted to do so, and not because everyone else was. I mean, I was in the marching band for god's sake... and I had a blast!

Before long, college crept up on me. I really had no idea what I was in for, and college turned out to be a huge learning experience for me. While I didn't have the typical "college" experience, the experience I did have taught me the practical side of life. I eventually transferred to a four-year college called Carthage College. I knew, when I was making my decision about where to transfer after I completed my general education courses, that Carthage was the best place for me. I was so right! Carthage pushed me in all the right directions; they challenged me academically and personally. The faculty weren't just there to teach, but to advise you and become your mentors.

A lot of my development happened at Carthage. Looking back, I wish I would have started my college journey there in the first place. But hey... I had some learning to do. As a graduation requirement, each senior has to develop, research, and compile a thesis. As an English major, we had to write a theoretical analysis of a major piece of literature (I chose Pride and Prejudice) and present it to our peers and the faculty. It was one of the hardest projects I've had to undergo in my academic life and I'm so proud of the accomplishment that writing and presenting a thesis gave me. I got a near perfect grade on my presentation and the forty page paper itself. It was a very happy moment for me.

Finally, I'd be remiss if I didn't talk about my husband Luis. I met him during my last year of high school and we started dating a month before I graduated. He was with me during some of the difficult periods I went through during college, and helped me get through them with encouragement, love, and wisdom. Luis is so different than me; he possesses all of the skills and abilities that I don't possess, and vice versa. This is so lame, but we complete each other (hehe). I could not have found a better person to live the rest of my life with. He has contributed so much to the person I am today.

Despite everything I've written here, this is only a small portion of everything that has gone into who I am today. It's merely what came to my mind as I thought about this prompt.

I'd love to hear about what makes you you! Are you going to do the Blogtember challenge, too? I'd love to hear your responses.

5 comments:

  1. I love your honest and earnest approach to the prompt. Thanks for sharing :)

    Sarah xo

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  2. Thanks Sarah! I liked your post as well :) I love see all of the different ways that bloggers are taking this prompt. Thanks for stopping by!

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  3. I've never heard of the blogtember challenge, but I think I'm definitely going to check it out. Thank you for sharing, I agree with what you said at the end though, it is really hard to write about who you are in a blog post (and personal to share!).
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  4. Can I just tell you how gorgeous that first picture is? Your dimples are adorable.

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